Rehab Journal

Day Seven:

Yeh! I have my recovery plan. Thank you! I will try not to rush into my assignments. I will mull them over, put thought into them. I will try not to over-analyze (which can be a hindrance for me) and truly think from the heart. I adore the idea of writing my first assignment in the form of a poem. Luckily, I write with more of a narrative voice than an abstract one, so the group should hopefully be able to comprehend it. But, first and foremost, I am writing it for myself, not an audience, so the way I will be perceived by others should not be of importance to me. I'm working on that. Also, I feel a little uncomfortable about my education. I feel awkward telling people that I graduated from college. I feel people with less education or opportunity may think I am gloating, or trying to announce my intellectual superiority over them. I am an addict, like everyone else here; as simple as that. Yet, I don't want to dumb myself down either. Just be yourself, Souza!At least as much as I know about myself right now...my compassion, my integrity, and my heart. The rest of my knowing will come with time.