Rehab Journal

Day Six:

Strangely, I had anxiety today from the moment I woke until late this evening. Even my medication didn't seem to relax me. I can't seem to think of anything that may have triggered it, except for the fact that this is my first non-blackout day and I can make phone calls to loved ones. yet, this is a good, exciting thing, so I am befuddled why this might cause contiued panic. I had a wonderful, if too quick, phone conversation with my boyfriend. Just to hear his soothing voice relaxed me. And yes, he is drug-free (never even tried any). He drinks only occasionally and never to any extreme and never around me. He knows how uncomfortable and inappropriate that would be. I pray I can see him for a visit this Wednesday evening. Does he need to call you (speaking to my in-care counsilor)for a phone interview, or do you call him? Please let me know so I can start this process. I hope to get my recovery plan soon. I am an eternal student and I am actually jeleous of all the homework the others get to fuss over. I'm sleepy. Going to bed early and get a good night's sleep. Au Revoir!