Rehab Journal

Day Forty-One:

I'm back! Now you will never be rid of me (hehe). I have never felt so grateful in my entire life. Grateful to the staff for allowing me to return, grateful to the girls here who welcomed me back with open, non-judgemental arms, grateful to God who kept me safe and out of danger while I was "out there." And grateful to myself, to having the absolutely committed desire to want to return here and finish what I started, to heal and happily maintain my sobriety. I feel like I came "home" today and it was the most comforting feeling. I will never take this for granted again. I was given a gift by being here and I need to honor that. I am so excited to get a long, deep goodnight's sleep. Feel refreshed and re-energized and get back on track with my program tomorrow. I know it may sound like I'm in optimistic la-la land, but I need this right now. I need to allow myself to feel good and strong and proud of my return. Embarrassment and guilt and shame will only bring me down further. My "blossom" may have closed up for a few days, but it will slowly and confidently begin to re-open.