Rehab Journal

Day Forty-Three:

I had a really nice day. Lots of light-heartedness and laughter. It really feels good to laugh again. I truly missed the girls here. I did a ton of homework today and caught up on some much needed sleep. I feel so dedicated to my recovery today. So much strength and hope about my future with my son. Besides myself, he is my main priority right now. I have been so wrapped up in my boyfriend and his pain and hurting (which I caused)that it's been difficult to focus on the impact my disease and recovery has had on my son. I can't do that anymore. I love my boyfriend and I care about his well-being, but I really need to put him on the sidelines for a while. I still want to keep in contact with him, but I need to distance myself emotionally from him right now. it's not healthy for me to keeping sucking in his pain and frustration like a vacuum. There is not enough room for all of us in their (my recovery)right now. It's too crowded. I have my self-love, my recovery, my sobriety, my son, and my financial Independence to concentrate on. That is alot already. I hope he can understand how I feel. But if he doesn't, I need to accept that. How does the song go, "Sometimes love just ain't enough."