Rehab Journal

Day Thirty-Six:

I've had a calm, relaxing, yet productive day. I've been a bit on the emotional side since finishing some grief and loss homework, but it's good emotion, not destructive, which is such a nice change. I'm also trying to quit smoking. This morning, I told myself that i was just going to go cold turkey, but after four hours I succumbed to the craving. But I'm still looking on the positive side of it. If cutting down is what I need to do first, then so be it. I'm trying to stay optimistic and realistic about the process, instead of bashing myself with failure like I normally would do. I'm chewing gum after meals and that's working a little bit, at least prolonging the need. I've decided that I don't want to try Chantix, the stop-smoking med. I really don't want anymore meds and chemicals in my system. Wish me luck.